So as I sit here on my back porch enjoying our first taste of "fall" weather (it is currently 75 and sunny with a soft breeze), I cannot help but think about how our lives are all going to change so much in the upcoming weeks. They are going to change for the absolute best reason, a baby, but change they will! I keep picturing all of these things I saw for myself as a mother and they feel so real now! For example on a beautiful day like to today Liuzza and I wouldn't be the only ones enjoying the weather, Baby J will be here. I can see him laying on a blanket getting his first tastes of the outdoors! It is so exciting to think about! SO exciting in fact that I have to keep reeling myself back into reality and not lala land. I am so ready for him to be here so we can do all of these things, but I know that he needs to come when he is ready. Let me just tell you, it is SO MUCH easier to say "I trust you to come when you are ready" and "I know you will come when you are ready," than it is to 100% follow suit. Don't get me wrong, I do trust him and my body to do what they are meant to, and I know that everything will work out as it is supposed to, but man o man waiting is hard!!! I don't think I have ever wanted something SO bad before. But I am doing my darndest to be a patient mommy! Christopher is doing a much better job than me....
Baby J Tidbits for the Week:
- He is right where he was last week: 60/70% effaced, -1 station, & no dilation. My Dr. did say that I could walk out of his office and my water break, so you cant put stock into the info. I will say I thought I would be deflated to hear that, like man my baby is not coming today or tomorrow. But honestly I was okay. I kid a lot about him coming early or taking his dear sweet time, but at the end of the day I do know that he will do things in his own time and on his own terms. Very much like his father when he proposed. I have to sit back, throw my hands up, and let it go!
- Aunt KK sent Baby J the cutest little hand knit turtle shell and beanie to wear for his new born pictures. And of course snapchats galore! She is so sweet to think of him, just because!
- Speaking of letting go, I am going to attach a picture below that is a poem of letting go. My prenatal yoga instructor read it to us and it really resonated with me!
- I froze my yoga membership for the foreseeable future and am not really sure how I will be able to get back to my 5-7 days of yoga when Baby J is here. I don't have anyone that can watch him for an hour while I run out, and I know I wont want to leave in the evenings for night classes. That is the time I get to spend with Christopher. Soooo as with everything else we seem to be in a waiting game and will see what happens. I was thinking maybe we changed gyms from 24hr to Lifetime because their yoga is phenomenal (lots of my studio instructors teach there) and their childcare is great too! It is pricier, but maybe once we see what we paid at 24Hr plus Vibe it will work out. Who knows, we need to look into it! Another task added to the to do list!
Weekly Rote Questions:
Week: 39 (officially full term if you ask the nurses wearing 39 buttons at Baylor Frisco!)
Weight Gain: Mama has officially gained her "I don't wanna gain more than 40/45" weight. I fluctuate between 40-45 depending on when I step on the scale
Maternity Clothes: Same ole boring ones! Haven't even worn the pair of linen pants, I hate them every time I put them on. My regular maxi dresses and skirts have been my BFFs! I actually was told today by my friend Becky how fabulous I look and that she couldn't believe I was 39 weeks. Thanks girl! Mama likes the compliments!
Wedding Ring On/Off: These bad boys have been off for weeks, for fear of them getting stuck and having to be cut off. Then my sweet engravings would be forever gone! I did ditch the fake bling too... that thing was a chunky monkey and annoyed the poop out of me. So now I just look like a single, knocked up, preggies slut! Oh well... what cha gonna do! Christopher so sweetly commented "wanna know why pregnant girls without rings get hit on?" (of course Christopher I am DYING to know) "Because guys know they are easy..." he is so charming.... so charming!
Sleeping: Same pattern - like a rock for the first half, then all the peeing starts. It is like breaking the seal, get up once get up 5-7 times!
Weekly Highlight: Knowing how close I am to meeting my little guy!
Stretch Marks: the weirdest things! I seriously feel like they look lighter, like they are going away.. that's just not possible!
Cravings/Food Things: Give me the sweets! I am a little fat kid!
Labor Signs: Nope, well not any that I know are signs. I am ready to experience some though! I hope that's not a be careful what you wish for moment!
Missing Anything In Particular This Week: Being able to walk Liuzza for more than 1-1.5 miles. And yoga
Weekly Mood: Excited!!
Whatcha Looking Forward Too: Sunday - His due date!
Workout This Week: Just walking as much as I can! Walking in the am and most nights in the pm. There have been a few nights here and there where Christopher and Liuzza had to walk without me. And prenatal yoga! But I need to look into Yogavibes.com and see about doing home practice.
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